Home is where the heart is....

Playing in the water...

Maybe the old saying "home is where the heart is" is true? I know that I usually dread going certain places, but when I commit to it and put my heart in it, it always ends up being such a blessing. So I guess where we feel at home, isn't so much a place, but a place of heart. See my parents moved away from the town I grew up in after I had already been away at college for a while, so going back to visit can be difficult and honestly just saddening. However! This time I did my best to allow Jesus to put my heart in the right place, and it's been great! Exactly what my exhausted spirit needed...

After all the "Russia" struggles going on in my heart, I needed nothing more than to be away for a while. Definitely not running away, I faced all the facts, put things in perspective, prayed, and laid things as they were at His feet. And then, I took a much needed vacation :)

My sisters and I traveled up here to Connecticut to visit my parents and little bro for a week. I've only been here for a few days and it's been, well....great! (sorry I'm lacking in creative adjectives) It's been non-stop home-cooked meals (yay!), sun-bathing, hiking, shopping, movie nights, music playing, art making, craft time, and every other family thing we could think of to do together. It's lifted such a weight off my heart to be with my family just hanging out. I should have known the first night I got here, when I laid out on the back patio, star-gazing, and I heard the coyotes howling in the woods, that God was going to do amazing things this week. Yeah so...my dad took the whole day off today and my parents planned an unbelievable day for us...

I woke to the smell of pancakes, my dad made breakfast and we ate on our back patio. Then we hung out, and went to the market and got bread and meat and fresh fruit and packed an amazing picnic lunch and headed to another small town in Connecticut (apparently that's all they have here) to go to this AMAZING waterfall! It has beautiful trees and woods and grassy areas and hiking trails and the most beautiful waterfall that goes up the side of the hill. So we get there and settle in front of the waterfall, we ate lunch, then we just kinda...chilled. My dad and bro went hiking, my mom and Lynz started drawing, and I'm still not sure where Laura went :) But armed with my sketchpad and charcoals, I climbed a ways up the waterfall and started sketching. I was in awe, surrounded by God's presence that way, its the best way to let your spirit rest. I felt so Light. After sketching I went hiking on some trails and met a hippie named Andrew, he plays the Flute, beautifully I must add, and he told me about the waterfall and it's history and he showed me the best swimming spots. So I finally found Laura and you guessed it...we went swimming in the waterfall (more like wadding). It was freezing, but WOW! So beautiful!

So there we were, my family, spending the whole day (without a single fight, woo!) just hanging out, enjoy God's creation together. After all that craziness I decided to get away and be with Jesus for a while. I journaled a little of what I was feeling in those moments...sitting on a log in the woods, listening to Andrew play the flute in the distance, just existing...and I thought I'd share my ramblings with you:

Its peaceful. to be in nature. to be in the presence of God. where labels don't exist, titles have no place, consumerism and society are words that have no meaning and no weight. life is real. pain is felt but out-weighed by beauty and grace. life is abundant. you can feel it, hear it, breathe it, and even taste it. the way the water rushes down like it has a purpose but it's just as wild and free as my spirit. the water itself pronounces His grace. the trees shout His mercy. the rocks sing of His love. Everything from the mighty waterfall to the smallest ant displays His magnificence. here there is hope. there is faith. there is a realness in the earth. to be one with His wholeness. to be caught here, the way creation was meant to be. I feel alive. I feel like who I was created to be. I feel light. I feel Jesus. I feel His song. Its in the air. its all around. it's humming, whistling, singing the most perfect tune and I get to be the melody.

I want to encourage you all, go be. Just exist. Sit in the most remote place you can find. Whether it's a park, the woods, or even if it's your backyard (although I would definitely say go somewhere where you can submerge yourself in nature, but only if you can). Tune out the world for a while and see how He created us to be. See nature for what it is--His presence. Journal your thoughts or just speak them, let the poetry of who He is flow over you and fall in love all over again. It will cleanse your heart, your spirit, your mind and it will put to rest any fears or doubts. I know it did for me. Sometimes all we need is a moment. There are many moments just like that, recorded in Luke and Mark. Jesus went to the Mount of Olives to be with Abba or the time when He was so stressed over what was to happen, He went to Gethsemane and prayed. He went away and spent time in nature with the Father. We should do as Jesus did, in all things, and in this. He showed us the importance of going away, of being in the Fathers presence, and He did this by going into nature. I could go on but regardless, go try it! (Luke 22 & Mark 14)

Russia: I've laid it at His feet, but be praying! There is a person who is willing to pay for most of the trip (whether this summer or next). God is good!

Now go find some woods ;)

Welcome to the world Lainey Claire

Lainey Claire Brossman

There are so many things I want to write about but seeing as how it's almost 4:00 in the morning, I'll keep it brief (and of course write more later) but just so you all know I've had a very enlightening day: a meeting with Mike that always opens my eyes and forces my heart to reconsider things, I started writing a new song :) finally, and I got to talk to one of my best friends and do my two favorite things- encourage & pray. So all in all, it's been a good day. But the best part was visiting my beautiful new "niece". My best friend Tara, just had her second baby girl, making me an "auntie" again, yay! Lainey Claire entered the world yesterday morning and she is already bringing so much joy. So if everyone could be praying for Tara and baby Lainey and their family. For health, joy, and that they would experience all of Jesus' love. That Lainey would grow up knowing the heart of the Father and seeing His love for her.

Uncertainties....

I feel like I've reached the end of the sidewalk

The past few weeks have been rough. I've been up and down. Emotionally drained and just plain exhausted. But it's funny how Jesus uses those times to challenge you and teach you the most. The place I'm at, I'm honestly at a loss for words. I feel like I've been feeling so much, it would be impossible to relay those emotions to anyone. But I'll try to express them as best I can.

I met with a Missionary last week and it was an odd mix of encouragement and disappointment. He wasn't disappointing, just some of the things he said. The wonderful part was that he completely understood my heart for Russia, he was on the same page and gave me such encouragement and constructive information. God blessed me with that insight. The problem was that with that insight came realism. My least favorite thing. FACT: I have to have literally all my money by June 15th, which is coming up quickly ($2,000 & I only have about $250). Not to mention, I have to have all my paper work finished in the next month (the Russians are sticklers for documents) so this is highly unlikely. Also, I need to have solid contacts, places to crash, and travel plans. FACT: I should probably go with some sort of group for a short term trip just so I can learn the country before I do anything on my own. Shew, that's a lot of hard facts. And the hardest of all: I'm crazy if I think I can do all this before August......He did however leave me with the reminder that God can do anything.



After that meeting I was so overwhelmed I couldn't even think about Russia. I just put it aside for a few days so I could sit down and actually process it all. And when I finally did, I completely broke down. If I don't go to Russia this summer, does that make me a failure? Am I disappointing everyone that has helped me and believed in this vision? Am I incapable of completing this task that Jesus asked me to do? Am I too lazy for this vision? Have I not done enough? What more can I do? Where do I even BEGIN? I felt like I was drowning in all these doubts and uncertainties...I felt so helpless. I wish that I could say I had some wonderful revelation and all the doubts floated away but sadly they didn't. Only more thoughts flooded my mind....



I miss my friends. I miss the way things were. I miss late night walks and intentional Jesus talks. I miss bike rides and music sessions. I've disappointed a lot of people. I hurt friends and family. I wonder what I'm going to do when I graduate. What if I fail a class and can't graduate? Why do I feel like everyone around me is running at full speed and I'm just watching them from the sidelines?....



...all of these are completely irrelevant to Russia, but they added to the overwhelming-ness that is my heart at the moment. I want nothing more to write some songs and get it out but I can't even do that because I'm so distracted. Oh Jesus, I need you now. Like You said to the Father, "Remove this cup from me, not what I will but what You will."



No more FACTS, no more DOUBTS, just my HEART, so here it is:



The vision I see for this country is Real. It's the very desire of Jesus' heart. Eliminate doubts, subtract fears, erase hesitations and reality, and you're left with the fact that Jesus is Lord, He is capable of anything and everything. and He is the Lord of my life. Therefore I will believe that He can and will accomplish it. Whether it's this summer, this fall, or next summer, the vision doesn't change, the need in that country doesn't disappear, it only increases. So I pray my heart is made more desperate for this country, that I would strive for Jesus' sake, not my own. Jesus isn't apart of my vision, I am apart of His. Who know's how or when it will happen, but it will. I guess that's why this blog is called Journey to Russia. It's going to be a journey, and certainly not a short one. So all I ask is that you guys would continue to pray for me, for this country, and understand the longing that is in my heart for the Russian people. I believed in the words Jesus gave me when I started on this long road, and I believe in them now, "I know your deeds. Behold, I have set before you an open door that no one can shut." Revelation 3:8





I love you all,

Relax? I can't rememeber how....

Finals are over! Done! I'm a free woman! I'm not really sure what to do with said freedom...run a marathon, travel across country, go bunjee jumping? The possibilities are endless. But for now I will just have to settle for beach chillage. And I'm perfectly okay with that :) I feel like even though I'm done with school, I still haven't had time to relax. All of my friends are graduating in a day and I'm trying to spend as much time with them as possible before they leave me forever...therefore no sleep. But it's definitely worth it.

I'm truly going to miss them all! They are such a phenomenal group of people. They've offered me encouragement, wisdom, and endless amounts of laughter over the years and I'm so devastated to see my support group leave. I would be completely depressed but for an amazing friend who reminded me tonight that time changes circumstances but doesn't affect friendships unless we let it. I truly believe that some of the friendships I have made over the past three years will last forever. I look forward to seeing these friends at my wedding, some of them in it! I look forward to them coming to my graduation next spring and all the future visits we will have. God is so much bigger than time and distance, and I have to remember that He gave me these friendships and He will allow me to maintain them. I could spend hours, days maybe writing each of them individually of how much they mean to me, but I won't for the sake of everyone reading this :) So I will simply say, thank you for your love, your honesty, your wisdom, and for blessing me with the joy of experiencing true friendship. I know you all will do unbelievable things, and I can't wait to see what He has in store for each of you. I truly believe I have the most talented group of friends...granted I may be a bit biast. I love you guys!

I have so much to update you all on Russia but I'm exhausted and I have to be up early. Not to mention I'm still trying to process it all and allow Jesus to enlighten me of what He is doing, so I'll have to give you a real update next blog. I'm praying for you all always!

The Times They are a-changin'.....

"Come writers and critics
Who prophesize with your pen
And keep your eyes wide
The chance won't come again
And don't speak too soon
For the wheel's still in spin
And there's no tellin' who
That it's namin'
For the loser now
Will be later to win
For the times they are a-changin'."

Thank you Mr. Dylan, for your words that constantly inspire me especially when I'm exhausted and school has sucked the life from me, when I think that there is no creativity left in me and all I want to do is run through those doors and take off for somewhere anywhere where I can be free to write and dance and sing. I look forward to the world known as summer, where there are no more exams, or papers, or busy work, where real learning begins: poems are read, songs are written, books are devoured, God and philosophy is discussed between beach-ridden companions, love is experienced, and of course LIFE. But until those moments of golden bliss, I shall remain here. Dwelling amongst these four beige walls consumed by the rigid educational system....so thank you Mr. Dylan, and keep it up.

You were made for someone greater....so follow Me

It's only been a few days since I last wrote, but I'm sitting here in the J-lab at 3 in the morning, where I've been around this time every night for the past week, just doing homework and I felt compelled to write. It's Finals week at school and life seems so stressful and nothing seems to be put in perspective and I feel really out of touch with reality. I've been sleeping in the j-lab on certain nights, getting by on limited amounts of sleep and relying on amazing friends like Christine to bring me snacks and caffeine when my body just can't handle it anymore. But tonight was different. But I shall start at the beginning of this interestingly, eventful weekend:



Friday was stressful because I literally had to work all day and then I went straight from work to a show that I played at to help out a friend, which was a really cool, extremely humbling experience. I so enjoyed playing with other people and being in a different environment. Then after that I had some interesting experiences that don't need to be explained but simply stated that God used those experiences to teach me many things about myself, and more importantly about Him.



Then today I FINALLY got sleep, I slept more than 4 hours last night. woot! but I had the most wonderfully amazing surprise today. One of my best friends made a surprise visit to come all the way from Blacksburg to see me. It was so good to just be around someone who knows me that well and to have God use him to speak such truth to me. I needed to here that wisdom that comes from someone who is so desperately seeking the Lord. It was such a fun night that God annointed with joy, love, and pursuance of Him. Then somehow I ended up in here with Christine (who once again provided snacks) and she played this song for me. It's called "Arms wide open" by Misty Edwards and it was exactly what I needed to hear. Christine just turned up the volume and I lay on the floor and just soaked. After a stressful somewhat eventful night, it was perfect to lay and listen to my daddy's voice. This won't make sense to most of you but maybe it will encourage you in some way. (All in my mind of course) But I felt Jesus touch my face and say "I'm not angry with you" and He smiled, held me and began to stroke my hair and as Jesus always knows what I need, it was perfect. Right on cue. I began to cry, a comfort cry, a relief cry. To experience Him in a moment of exhaustion makes the pain of it all, so worth it. So be blessed friends and soak in Him, tonight or in the morning and just listen. Hear Him and begin to feel yourself relax and bask with arms wide open, in who He is. I love you all, goodnight!

"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9

Prayer Requests:

*My physical health

*Finals

*RUSSIA

Love,

WARNING: Longest Post in History!!!!

Okay, are you guys ready for this??? I haven't posted in what? A MONTH??? Apparently that is like an eternity in blog years. I am an epic fail as a Journalism student, because this kind of stuff is supposed to be our life! I'm not even sure I'll be able to update you all in just one post but here goes....

(Picture of David and I from the show)

I left you in suspense by telling you about the show and how we were using that to raise money for Russia. The show has passed and we raised $125 which doesn't seem like a lot but from a bunch of college students that's a fortune so thank you everyone for being so generous! A BIG thank you to David for playing with me so wonderfully, and to the lovely Danielle (and all her roomies) for letting us use their house (and also for just being amazing!), and thank you to EVERY SINGLE PERSON that came out! What has happened since? Well as far as music goes I played at school a few times since the Norfolk show, I wrote the music for my fabulous friend Caitlins' Documentary, we recorded that recently. (Dear Caitlin, I hope you do not get sick of my voice after listening to it for countless hours while editing.) And I'm looking forward to doing more shows to raise money! YAY! :)

So that's that. I'm still working the job at the mall, which is great, exhuasting but great. It's pretty cool to think that my job is ministry. A lot of people dream about doing that and I get to everyday(well not literally everyday). It is getting difficult with finals approaching and the craziness of summer but I'll manage, well more like Jesus will manage and I'll do my best to listen to His calming voice as I panic.

Switching gears (these next few updates are probably going to be super random, so pardon me)....My best friend Tara is approaching her due date of her second little girl, which is very exciting. I shall be an "auntie" a second time over and I can't wait...I LOVE babies!!! (Oh and be praying for Tara, for a save and quick delivery and a healthy baby girl) On another note almost all of my favorite people in the whole world (my Journalism peeps) are graduating in 2 very short weeks and LEAVING me to go off and have crazy adventures while I stay here...to continue school. womp. So this is my last chance to say this: PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't leave me :( What will I do without our cook-outs where we don't actually cook out, or grilled pears, or late night Sandlot? *sigh* I shall miss you all more than you know....

Okay, moving on to what you all have been waiting for RUSSIA UPDATE! WOot!

Shew, where to start? So the last thing I really mentioned was basically that I was looking for a group or organization to hook up with. Well I kept praying and God wasn't opening any doors and I was feeling very let-down. I kept asking the Lord, "Why did you put this country on my heart with no intention of sending me there?" I was rethinking what I heard, second guessing everything, and basically at a point where I wanted nothing more than to give up. So what else could I do but Pray? So one night I'm sitting on campus praying, asking the Lord to reveal something, a group, a missions, something. And He simply said, "there is nothing for me to reveal. I want YOU to GO and do something that isn't being done." WOW! That was such an eye-opener. Instead of feeling like a wanderer lost in the wilderness, I began to feel as if God was slowing cutting back the thicket so I could see where I was walking. And I've been carrying those words with me ever since that night (which was actually only about a week ago hehe) Anyway, so I've been praying and I've decided to stick with August as the date to go. I really believe the Lord wants me in Moscow, where I'll be spending the first few days doing a prayer walk through the city, praying for the country, for individuals, and praying for the government. There has been some upsetting news, two female suicide bombers blew up a subway in Moscoe killing around 2 dozen people. Also, Russian officials threatened to stop adoptions to the U.S. however they are still allowing as of right now. So please be praying about both of those incidents! So yes, the prayer walk, then the remaining time I'll spend volunteering at orphanges, homes for women that have been rescued from Human Trafficking, and doing my best to help the children that are living in the slums get off the streets. The goal is simply to be His hands and feet, to show Christ to the people of this nation in any way I can, and to love on those who don't know that kind of love. I'm currently working on getting my passport, finally! And a very dear precious friend of mine (who coincidentally has a heart for Russia) is praying about going with me on the trip, so please be praying formy friend. OH! And last but certainly not least if this were not enough encouragement, the Lord blessed me with a very special gift. A person, who shall by request remain nameless, felt the Lord told them to give me a financial contribution. I had never met this person previously, so it was definitely God. I'm so so so very honored by this person and their gift and their obedience. It has been so thankfully recieved and of course all glory goes to Jesus. :) But I did want to give them a shout out, because it was sooo encouraging. Especially during a time when I honestly have no idea what I'm doing.

Prayer Requests:

- Tara and her baby

-Russia, as a nation

-My trip

-FINANCES

On a side note, My amazing friend Christian is going to be posting videos from the show on here in the next couple days, so keep an eye for those. I love you all and thank you for the suuport. And please let me know how I can pray for you!

in Him,

I will exalt Thee...

So the last time I talked to you I was visitng family in Louisville, Ky, Thanks for all the prayers! I had an amazing time hanging out with my family, and writing some songs, and I even went shopping at my favorite vintage store called The Nitty Gritty. If you're ever in Louisville go check it out :) http://nittygrittyvintage.com/ I got home safely (although EXHAUSTED) after a stressful trip home. My sister ended up driving to Louisville and my other sister was out of town so I had no one to scoop me from the airport upon my return however, my awesome friend Chris came to get me so, disaster averted. YAY! So here are some highlights of the past two days:

*I got some much needed sleep!

*I'm officially playing a show at the end of this month (March 27th)...I'm so nervous

*I talked my amazing musician-friend David into playing at the show with me :)
*I started a new job!

Yes, it's true ladies and gents! That job that I told you applied for at the mall, well I got it and I had my first day today. And much too my surprise, I actually really love it! I get to meet new people, spread the gospel of Jesus Christ, and pray for people, and not to mention the amazing people I get to work with who are so encouraging. I couldn't ask for a better job, God is good! The only downfall is that my feet SERIOUSLY hurt...womp. But while at work one of my co-workers told me that some of the local resturants do dine-to-donate for non-profits and he suggested that I do it to raise money for Russia! It is so amazing how God keeps putting things before me, just like the verse that has kept encouraging me "I know your deeds. Behold, I have set before you an open door that no one can shut." (Rev. 3:8) God continually opens doors for me to get to Russia. Money can be the downfall for so many mission trips, it's crucial and the lack of it can often leave those needing it less encouraged and more concerned. And even though I currently have no money for Russia, I have faith which is even better :) God has put before me an awesome lady named Lauren who has been such a blessing, she created this blog for me so that I could gain awareness for this trip and Russia in general (you should check out her blog called "Living by Faith" at http://laurenalexis1.blogspot.com/, it was just voted one of the top 100 best Christian women's blog of the year!). God put in my path an awesome friend who offered me her house so that we could put on a show where we could ask people that come to see David and I play for donations for Russia. (In fact she double-blessed me, with the chance to recieve donations, and the chance to play my music in front of people) And now He placed me in that conversation to hear about the resturant-donations. Wow, that's alot in such a short amount of time. But I just realized that once again I have written a blog that is equivalent to a small novel, so I will end with a reminder that I got today, God is grace and where He is, it will be endless. So stay in Him, remain with Him, abide with Him and there His grace will too abide. I love you all, and many blessings!

Bluegrass City

I've walked these streets before

I know this town by heart

Every sidewalk says hello

Goodmorning Louisville, how are you?

It's been a while since I been here

Every sign reminds me

Of what I'm walkin' to find

A place of peace, a resting place

So come be the only one who knows me

And come be my hiding place, my safe refuge

Oh Bluegrass City....

That's a few of the lyrics from a song that I wrote about Louisville :)

So I've been here for a little over a day and it's been great! It's nice to just escape to that place where you can be a kid again and have Mamaw take care of you. My mamaw has already made me some southern home-cookin' (yummmm) and I played her the autoharp today (she's convinced I sound just like Doris Day) and she gave me these old Hymnals that were my Great-Grandmas from the 30's (AHHH!). But I'm honestly just enjoying the whole "being home and not doing work feeling." I'm currently listening to Elvis and watching my whole family playing hula-hoop with my little cousin Gracie. I spent all day with her and it was sooo fun and I couldn't help but think about all those little kids in Russia who don't get to have a childhood. I was hugging and kissing on her and I was wondering if they get hugged enough, or if they've ever even been hugged by someone that loves them. And the Lord broke my heart all over again.

Well, I don't have much to say, other than to ask all of you to take a moment, right now works, close your eyes and just feel our Heavenly Father embrace you, let Him hug you, remember how perfect it feels to be wrapped in His love. Go ahead.......

I want nothing more than for all those babies overseas to know and expereince that feeling. Well I'm going to go to bed, but here is a quick reminder: "The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. 'The LORD is my portion,' says my soul, 'therefore I will hope in him.' The LORD is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him." (Lamentations 3: 22-25)

Oh the prospects of tomorrow!

Blessings friends,

I'm really bad at this....

So I'm really bad at this! I promise in the future I will be much more diligent on posting daily! It's just been a crazy week, trying to do midterms and get stuff ready to go. I'm going to Kentucky to be with my family for Spring Break, so that's taken up a lot of my time. But I did want to write an encouraging post, because in all honesty my heart has been hurting the past couple weeks, but God has been so good to me, always lifting me up and reminding me who I'm living for. I wanted to share with you guys about what He is teaching me:

I'm a Young Life leader, and for those of you who don't know what that is, I would encourage you to find out at http://www.younglife.org/us. So I was at Young Life club and I had to give the talk Wed. night and I felt God was leading me to talk about His Love and how unfathomable it is. There is no comparison to how deep His love is. It's funny how I was intending to teach these kids about His love, when I realized I don't even fully understand it. So God decided to teach me through my teaching. Here is what I learned: God says in Isaiah 43 "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine....you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you." WHA???? Now read it again, and insert your own name in place of you, and remember this is our Heavenly Father speaking :)

That is a love greater than any love. So I mentioned earlier that my heart has been hurting for many reasons, but I said to a friend last night that I felt as if I were drowning and God was the only thing keeping me coming up for air. So awesome is God's love that after saying this, I went home and I began to re-read Isaiah 43 and this is what it says, "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;" (verse 2) God speaks to us, everyday if we just listen. He loves us and He has written an entire book that is simply one giant love letter addressed to me and to you. I just want to encourage each of you to soak in His love, because it is a perfect place to rest in.

RUSSIA UPDATE:
Here is a weekly update on Russia info, I'm trying to decide between All God's children International and 24/7 prayer movement. So please be praying that God would lead me to one of the two more specifically or reveal to me another option. I'm beginning to get a time frame for when I should go, I would personally love to go in June but I'm really feeling that God is leading me more towards August sometime. I have to meet/talk with my pastor on March 3 so we can discuss my options further, so please pray that God would be present in our conversation and guide me in His direction.


Well, I have a midterm to work on so I shall end here, but I'm asking that you guys would pray for me to have safe travels tomorrow morning as I fly to KY and that I would have a refreshing Spring Break and that during this week our Father would speak to me more about Russia and His plans for this country that has captivated my heart. I love you all, be blessed and please comment with prayer requests so that I can be praying for you all as well!

Free-Spirited. Apparently that is what I am, which is basically a nice way of saying "Brittany, even though we love you, you are extremely irresponsible." And I have discovered that this Characteristic does not go hand-in-hand with a career. Problem? some would say yes, I say absolutely not! Since I currently only have four followers on here and all of you know my extreme desire to play music like a nomadic hippie for the rest of my life, would agree that a typical career is just not a realistic possibility for me. So anyway, I'm saying all this to disclaim the fact that I QUIT my job. shew. I said it, it's official. So anyway, I have spent all day trying to relish in this new-found freedom...a day in the life of a recently unemployed "me":

My oldest sister, Lyndsey came to visit and we decided to blow our money in my favorite upscale resturant....Chic-fil-a. After a completely uneventful meal we made our way to the mall, discovering that we are both too poor to actually enjoy the mall. So I did the complete opposite of what I had set out to do....I APPLIED for another job. Apparently I have not learned my lesson. Then after this fascinating day (I'm hoping you all have caught on to my sarcasm) I came home to find that my PC hates me. It caught a virus or something and just died. No more computer. And no money to fix it. :( However despite the uneventful reality of my life, my day is ending on a high note. I'm sitting here drinking my favorite Organic Chai tea and listening to Bob Dylans "Freewheelin" on vinyl, it doesn't get much better than this. I also talked to a friend of mine and I'm recording some of my music on friday, which is pretty exciting and offered a much needed silver lining.

But all in all I realized a pretty important thing today, that despite the reality of the world I live in, I have something so much greater to cling to, my Father in Heaven. He loves me so much that He has planned a future, a purpose for me, that is far greater than I can even begin to fathom. He loves me so much that even amidst that blah-ness of a bad day, He makes my heart leap for joy with the beauty of His words: "As you come to Him, a living stone rejected by men but in the sight of God chosen and precious, you yourselves like living stones are being built up as a spiritual house, to be a holy priesthood, to offer spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ." 1 Peter 2:4-5

mmmmm....such a perfect reminder, He always see's me as more precious than I feel :)

Well friends, keep me in your prayers and please if you have any prayer requests or if I can be praying for you in anyway, leave me a comment and I'll be doing that! I love you guys, so take care and remember "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11 (NKJ)

A Day Well Spent

Today is my beautiful goddaughters birthday, so....HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILY! (Isn't she adorable???) Lily you are amazing and such a blessing, it's unbelievable watching you grow and I pray your second year is even better than the first, love you!!!!


I feel like there are so many things I'm supposed to talk about, like well Russia for example. But I'm not even sure where to start, so I'm just going to give a brief overview of what I know for sure...which is not much :) Obviously I have felt this insane calling to go, so after an intense battle with meekness, the Lord filled with me the boldness to pursue going....cool...but I had no idea where to go from there. So when all else fails, seek someone much wiser, which in this case was my Young Adult pastor at my church. We met one day and he blew my mind with crazy wisdom and gave me, what else? deadlines. gulp. I suck at deadlines. BUT I guess this will give me a chance to practice all that diligence I've been praying for....So Here is the rundown: because there are no missions going from my church I have to find a way to go, so by March 3rd I have to have a list of groups/missions/organizations/movements that I might possibly feel a pull towards to go with. Guess what? It's Feb. 20th and I have 1. I'm great at this. (heavy on the sarcasm). I feel an intense pull to work with the 3.2 Million children that flood the streets of Russia annually. So I've been looking into working with All God's Children International. If you have an suggestions please feel free to let me know. The other deadline is April 3rd, I have to have contacted all the groups on the list and prayed about it and narrowed it down to one. *sigh* This is going to be a long two months. Keep me in your prayers friends!


In other news, I had an amazing day spent with a wonderful new friend of mine named Danielle. She lives in this sweet loft in Ghent (it's like the cool artsy area of Norfolk) and we walked to get brunch at this cute diner. We thrifted and walked and talked and had coffee and it was honestly just nice to be with someone my age who is clearly in love with the Lord and encouraged me so genuinely. She said two things today that really stuck with me, first she told me that I "radiated what it is to be a daughter of God", which is crazy because last night I was asking God what it means to be His daughter (God is good!) and she also told me that she felt I was "ripe for the picking". So awesome, definitely something to pray about! All in all, it was a day well spent!

peace.


"The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God." Romans 8: 16

And the Journey Begins....

"Missions aren't always about a 'heart-tug' but sometimes they're just about obedience...." Those were the words my pastor spoke one thursday night and I knew, I just knew that God was speaking to me. I've been in love with Russia since I was 8 and I've felt a calling on my life to go there and I always said "one day" but that night God spoke to me, and I realized there is no such thing as "one day". It's here and now, it's just about being obedient and going. So in the past month I have been searching in my heart to find the boldness to go to this country that I have fallen in love with. (Can you fall in love with a place you've never been to?) So with the help of my pastor and a ton of encouragement from the Lord I have embarked on this journey to be His hands and feet in a country that knows very little about His faithfulness. So needless to say this is just the beginning, and I hope you will continue on this journey with me....

I've never written a blog before, so it might be rough starting out :) BUT....I shall do my best! I'm going to keep this post short, 1) because I'm at work and the office is about to close (oops) and 2) I don't want to scare anyone off with my overwhelming excitement about Russia and this crazy journey I'm experiencing. I promise to elaborate much more on the point of this blog next time, but until then...

Many Many Blessings,

"Behold, I send an angel before you to guard you on the way and to bring you to the place that I have prepared." Exodus 23:20